I was 13 weeks pregnant with my third child. Was too early to know the sex but
I feel it was a 3rd boy. I cannot believe still that he isn’t inside me anymore
and that he is dead. I had already picked out the name Gabriel for a boy.
Little did I know that he was already truly an angel. I feel angry and sad.
I lost my baby on July 26, 2005. As my due date (February 1, 2005) draws
nearer, it is only getting harder. Why? Each time there is a milestone of my
pregnancy or what would have been a milestone in my pregnancy, I break down.
No one seems to remember that there should be a life growing inside of me right
now. When I try to talk about it, the subject is changed. Although my husband
tries to be understanding, I know that he is not affected with our loss the way
I am. What hurts more is knowing that he didn’t want our baby to begin with.
He was satisfied with the 2 we already have. I want to try again and he refuses
so I resent him for that.
hi... im Megan... i just turned 18yrs old and on sept 7th
i had my first miscarrage, i was 6 weeks, it was the most terifying experiance of my life and it still is... sometimes i just
wanna give up its been 4 days and i am still crying all the time i just am confused why this happened to me... if anyone has
any advice please feel free to email me... megan_resler@yahoo.com
Sept 11th, 2005 06:25:20 (GMT Time)
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Catherine
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Thank you for your website. I had a miscarriage before Christmas and now spend hours combing through websites to find out what I did wrong and what I can do better next time. If I am lucky enough to have a next time. This would have been our first child but I guess it just wasn't meant to be.
My thoughts go out to all the women and men who read this site and have suffered the pain of pregnancy loss. I know how deep you have to dig to find the bravery required to deal with it.
Hi, I just came across your group and wanted to sign in. I too suffered early miscarriages and 2 ectopic pregnancies between 1979 & 1989. I know the pain & misery of what everyone feels when they lose a much-wanted child, it is so distressing. My heart goes out to everyone that has lost a baby, but you'll see your little Angels again one sweet day, til then, God bless you all (((hugs))) Dawn
hi my name is sharon i am 28 and i have to angels in heaven bethany was born 20 weeks gestation and lily was born asleep at 33 weeks gestation i have a 12 month old little girl Ella now and she is great i am also 25 weeks pregnant.
Hello, my name is Jason E. Ward and I am a 29 year old African American father from the Bronx NY and 3 months ago, my twin daughter Aiyah was called back home into heaven prior to her birth and it brings me great joy to know that she is having so much fun in heaven right now being with God and the rest of his angelic saints. But rather than let me tell it, please go to my website and read the e-mail I received from my baby Aiyah in heaven.
I want the world to know that although death is a part of this life, love itself is eternal and will one day certainly reunite all those who are blessed enough to have found joy in it. Let me know what you think. Thanks and God bless.
I WAS 8 WEEKS WHEN I LOST MY BABY. IT HAPPENED MARCH 18, 2003. IT STILL SEEMS LIKE YESTERDAY FOR ME. I WANTED MY BABY SO MUCH. I STILL DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY MY BABY IS GONE. I GUESS YOU CAN SAY I AM STILL ANGRY AND I REALLY DON'T KNOW HOW TO GET PAST THIS FEELING.
Hello,
I am an obstetrician in the Boston (USA) area. Recently my hospital has begun a program whereby at the time of each birth at the hospital, a few chords of Braham's Lullaby is played over the hospital speakers.
One of my colleagues has proposed that this may be offensive to women/families who have experienced loss either by miscarriage or stillbirth.
My colleague also believes that this practice has been examined and abandoned at other facilities.
Do you, or your members have any thoughts on this. The intention of the hospital was not to offend or cause pain to any one.
Thank you,
Nicole
I'm 18yrs old and i lost my baby 3 weeks ago. I was so excited and so were all my family and my boyfriend, I couldnt wait for my 20 week scan to find out the sex of our baby,we really wanted a little boy! then 3 days before my scan i couldnt feel my baby move and i didnt again,but i never imagined that when i went for my scan on 27st august 2003 that they would tell me that my baby had died,its never happened to anyone in my family and i always thought it could never happen to me or if it did id know because i would bleed or something. my world just fell apart for as long as i can remember ive wanted a baby. I gave birth to my baby 4 days later on 31st august 2003, a beautiful sleeping baby boy, he was 24cm long and weighed only 275gms but he was perfect we spent the night with him and kept expecting to hear him cry, id always longed to hear the first cry my baby lets out.We buried him on the 4th sept 2003 in a special babys garden. I miss my baby so much and i still dont know why we l
I've had two miscarriages in 9 months. Had no idea how common it was until it happened to me. Found friends and colleagues had all suffered. It is comforting to see that some have persisted and had beautiful babies.
I found your site very interesting, and am sure many of my mum, dad, and kids readers would too.
I would like to add your banner/link to my 'female only' 'teens' and general 'links' pages, and appreciate a return link.
Thanks,
Frankie.
Thanks for sharing your site with us.Can you email your Memorial Service times to us when you arrange them so we can publisise them on our sites as wel.May God bless your work with those suffering so much pain and loss.
This is a really nice site.Just found out that i am 5 weeks preg after 1 ectopic and 1 miscarriage i was so excited,until i got out og bed this am and started bleeding i havent been to the dr cause im scared of what will happen. I dont know how to deal with the pain. can anyone help...
Seven weeks ago I was 15 weeks pregnant. It was going to be my husband's and my first baby. We were so excited. We were moving into a house so we would have more room for the baby. We went nuts at the stores;buying everything we could think of for the baby. We had our baby's name picked out. And we were just a couple days away from finding out what sex our baby was going to be. This was the happiest we both ever remember being. But then on Feb1/03 I had a miscarriage. It seemed like our dreams were being crushed and we had no control over it. It has now been 7 weeks. My husband seems to be doing quite well. But I still feel so weak. I feel sad all the time. I try to act strong around people. But deep down I feel like I knew this baby forever and now it is gone.
I go to miscarriage web sites and chat groups because it helps me to verbalize how I feel. I now understand micarriage, I never did before. I didn't know it could cause this much pain.
Wendy Brooks.
After 4 miscarriages ranging from 8 - 17 weeks, i'm now 13 weeks pregnant again & all appears to be going well. I just wanted to add this as a positive note to anyone who may be feeling as though there is no hope for a future pregnancy. I'll never forget my 4 special babies and i'll worry about this one untill the day it's born, but despite the pain i'm not ready to give up yet either. I'll keep you posted as the months go on.
i had a miscariage in october 2002. i had only know about my pregnancy for 2 weeks before i had my miscaraige. but in those 2 weeks i had planed what i wanted for my baby and what i was going to call it. i was 8-12 weeks gone and i was proud to become a mum, my husband was happy cause we had just got married and was having our very own baby. but now im on my own, my husband has left me and all i can do at the moment is cry that i havent got anything to hold onto of my own. in some way im glad i lost my baby cause at least it wouldnt be teared between the two of us, but then im sad that i havent got my baby cause i love kids and have wanted one since i was 15 years old and now im 20 this year. i havent got anyone to keep me going anymore so im anyone has any advice then please sent me an email. but please if your husband or boyfriend says youve got to be brave for them, then do what you like, cause my husband said that and all he could do was cry and say it was my fault and now thats wh
I have lost 3 babies know over the last 3 years. Nov.2000, Nov.2001, so when I was pregnant in Nov.2002 I couldn't wait for the month to end. we went for our 20 week scan early Jan.2003 there was no heart beat and our baby had died at 18 or 19 weeks, we thought we were 3rd time lucky but clearly not.
I just like to say it's good to have sites like yours where we can see were not alone, and local to where we live. I hope I will get to one of your meetings in the near future.
a very nice website, i especially liked the poems.i suffered my first miscarriage 4 weeks ago, and i thought i was doing ok, but some days it dosn't feel like it.i already have a wonderful daughter of whom iam eternally grateful for.we are trying again so fingers crossed for next time.
just wanted to let u know wot a great site this is, i suffered 5 miscarriages over 4yrs after having my two beaut daughters who r now 11yrs an 12 yrs, i then i had 4 yrs of no pregnancy whatsoever, after repeated tests nothin was found, when i started the next batch of tests i fell pregnant, was totally scared that i would lose this one, was asked 2 take an aspirin a day every day, which i did, and had a stitch put in at 14wks, my son is 6mths old now, i still cannot believe i made it. never give up, i didnt......
I just recently experienced a miscarriage and I never ever in my life felt so alone with this experience. I feel very vunerable and my emotions are all over the place. I am very glad I have found your leaflet in hospital. Just from looking at your website I feel somehow supported. I don't feel ready yet to attend the support group but I feel good about this option.
I do have lovely support from my partner and my homeopath did give me finally the best support I could have wished for during the worst hours of the actual loss.
I wish you very well with your work! It is so much needed. Thank you!
I had a miscarriage June 6, 2002 which was very painful. I had another miscarriage August 18, 2002 and it is something that I am having a very hard time with. I have lost 2 children that I will never get to feel move inside of me and never get to hold or even see their precious little faces.
Fantastic site, especially as a 1st attempt. Well done on setting up the group, I know it will be extremely comforting for couples affected by miscarriage.
Nic, You've put alot of hard work into the site and setting up the support meetings and I'm sure alot of people will get comfort from it. Well done mate
